"this is the beard
i'm always growing"

i was thinking about
butch
and what they say
they must mean something else

feeling

i was wondering what i was wanting

feeling

Hungry!
and lustring
grinding my teeth
sucking at it
yapping
and eating

hungry
i was biting for it
and

tired

made myself tired from such striving

at nothing
wholly holey

ugh
UGH UGH!

long: so What.

what was sexy
what i wanted
some
CONFIDENCE

or
CONfiDANCE

Yeah!

boring
tired
said
"it's boring to starve"
here's my quotes of the year:

"starving is a boring way: starving is Boring"

and

"i am naturally a crazy person"

she laughed
but what do you do with people who's lips would scrape the floor with heavy i-lids

doesn't it get tiring?

i'm tired of it
i'm sure.

sexy
self-assured someone

want someone who's OK with feeling and being
pushing and pulling
stand up and say

"Yeah: i Am"

that's right.

OK.


nothing about saying and demanding things
not about that

i've got a friend i can sleep with
quote bob:
"...skin to skin, de-charging the fury of the day."