34.34 @ 02:26 am
I'm 100% F.U.N.
People Are Awesome These Days
See that guy?
he's a cool guy
he's a lot of fun
I wish I could end this egoist cycle on an UP note
but my mind feels poisoned
I'm feeling incredibly antisocial
and I have no clue how to talk myself out of it
I'm grateful I won't have to continue saying things publicly
I can return to this year's practice of noodling to myself
when did it all go so wrong?
I'm looking forward to (craving) this next mercury retrograde cycle
something from the past!
when I seemed to be more functional!
something silly and filled with pride
moving along my trine
from impulsive firey water-controller
to the pair of virility and senility
I mean, seniority!
a brave and arrogant aggression
and fathers and lawyers and rulers
what could they be?
four years ago?
I'm not certain. . . does the mercury retrograde cycle work like that?
sticking to our guns. . .
I meditated this morning upon waking
it was some small comfort
but so much spiraling static
This Too Shall Pass
my hands are open for the next
. . .
My Ship (something something. . . )
. . . i achieved precious little tonight
but enjoyed time with a friend
who shared half of a quaylude he found in a stash from 30 years ago
I massaged him until I felt too heavy
I'm laying down and ready to sleep
we will play tomorrow
thank you for all the blessings!