I'm 100% F.U.N.
People Are Awesome These Days
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See that guy?
he's hot
he's a cool guy
he's a lot of fun

/

I wish I could end this egoist cycle on an UP note
but my mind feels poisoned
I'm feeling incredibly antisocial
and I have no clue how to talk myself out of it

I'm grateful I won't have to continue saying things publicly
I can return to this year's practice of noodling to myself

when did it all go so wrong?

I'm looking forward to (craving) this next mercury retrograde cycle
yeah
something from the past!
when I seemed to be more functional!
something silly and filled with pride

moving along my trine
from impulsive firey water-controller
to the pair of virility and senility
I mean, seniority!
a brave and arrogant aggression
and fathers and lawyers and rulers

what could they be?
four years ago?
I'm not certain. . . does the mercury retrograde cycle work like that?

short hair
new plans
new attempts
sticking to our guns. . .

I meditated this morning upon waking
it was some small comfort
but so much spiraling static

ahhh
platitudes, please
yes
This Too Shall Pass
my hands are open for the next
. . .

My Ship (something something. . . )

. . . i achieved precious little tonight
but enjoyed time with a friend
who shared half of a quaylude he found in a stash from 30 years ago
I massaged him until I felt too heavy
I'm laying down and ready to sleep

silly world
we will play tomorrow

thank you for all the blessings!