I woke from difficult dreams
after writing them
two messages cut me adrift
one casting a heap of hope and sorrow into Azazel
the second sealing my heart yet again with good reason
I keep finding good reason
my heart has felt so closed
struggle struggle struggle
should be the easiest thing
would you go walking around with your eyes closed?
I remember that a big benefit of doing bodywork is helping people that I can help
and helping people is a good meditation
and bodywork, in various facets, I am good with
yeah. . . I could teach more of this
and probably enjoy it
I took time after that to complete the project I had schedule for myself
client added bonus
goal half done; but main concern met
listening to music from my teenage years
that's nice
angry and thrashy
and all the rest
fine
head to see friends
friends friends friends
yeah, I should do a song to that rumi poem "don't come near me"
but glad I came to them
successful hanging out
work
release
cleaning
day
fine
und jetzt?
