34.12 @ 08:22 am
I don't know if I want to talk to him
I see him there
he's obviously different
I think one leg is a prosthetic
smoking electronic cigarettes on the train!
a walking stick with branch knots apparent
all dressed in black
manicured sides of his beard
not an iPhone user
enjoying his music
making faces of presence at me
long pale fingers
black backpack with purple carabiner on it
we're both different
but I'm not really super interested in the 100% black clothing people
there was a fat daddy beat I saw on my street yesterday
in a kilt!
but all dressed in black
knee high leather boots
so odd that that is a turn off for me now
what use are you to me with out chroma?
this is where we live
in the mix. . .
he'd come a burlesque show at the Delancey
I saw his mouth open
this is what the straight ones grow up to be
now he's talking to the nice jewish girl sitting next to me
showing her pictures from tonight's show
a go-go dancer
"who treats gravity like a toy"
he sounds do impressed
excessive emphasis on these words
but I can tell he used to be very fat
now he's slimmer
but a soft pouch in the front of his black slacks
and just such Big Hands and shoulders
a large man
to someone like that
"her background was in ballet"
his knee apparatus
it would be so amazing to beep lithe and graceful
I'm a little like that
have been more so
and those that I am attracted to admire the freedom I have in my body
as I admire the gravity they have on this earth
. . . but my superficial attraction has proven to be a poor choice most times
"bad taste in men" I was accused of at age 15
and still to this day
enough enough enough
on I wrestle
but mostly with myself
"find something else to do
with your time
. . . oh, while you've still got the chance"