DO IT, LIKE THIS
because he's never done it before
and i ask him to
and he says "yes..."
but should i be surprised when he backs out at the last second?
here in the house
felt these voices
starting to believe in smudging... serious
this house of kept secrets
now he's sick in bed
YEAH RIGHT, motherfucker
and since i paid him attention
he's shut up entirely
i can't help it!
sometimes i even try to be nice!
not often... not good at it, not interested
how to interract?
and why bother?
back on wings up to the hermitage..
give it a moment.
last night i felt like i lashed out
what mood was i in?
what's in the house?
reading his post
it just sounded Stupid
don't take your friend seriously when he's being absurd
you know him better than that
punch him in the shoulder and tell him you will not play this game
keep walking on
not this game where you're dumb
coz you're not
not this game where you can't say anything, can'd do anything, always wrong
it's a Dumb Game: NO
saying NO a lot leaves you alone.
even to dumb things.
gotta go throughd dumb things being a human
walk around this city
be alone and angry
they bears are arriving for IBR
go smile at them
be a lover
pretend to be a lover
something better than just angry
i'm just writing to get the anger out
it doesn't deserve to be directed at anyone
but you can't leave it in a box alone
have to do something with it
meanwhile, back at the ranch
i just went to Magnet to get my HIV, Syphallis and Ghonorrea/chlamydia tests
while i was there
i got a free shiatsu massage
gave him a 10 buck tip
give it away...
the guy testing me doesn't think i have syphallis or ghonorrea
but he does think i've got infections in my body
but he thinks it's just general winter fatigue and choughs and plane illnesses
and the shiatsu guy said i've been masturbating too much
and have a weak digestion
yeah, i know
how do any of us take care of ourselves?