Log in

No account? Create an account

Vertical Prose

February 7th, 2005

example of astrological understanding @ 09:06 pm

Current Music: The White Trash Period Of My Life-Josh Rouse-Dressed Up Like Nebraska

Share  |  |


[User Picture Icon]
Date:February 8th, 2005 05:35 am (UTC)
I don't know if this exactly applies to you. But when I was much younger I admired someone who gave up a life of wealth to live as if poor. But then someone said to me - he has failed to address the life challenge he set himself. His job was to steward the wealth and make sure it was used for good instead of squandered or used for ill. I wonder if your job is to steward the wealth you are being offered.
[User Picture Icon]
Date:February 8th, 2005 06:10 am (UTC)
Thanks Bill
that was a good angle to think about

but i don't think that's it...

"wealth" flows in a current
and for the same reason that some would not feel comfortable accepting money that was knowingly stolen from someone (just for the bad karma of it)
i know i did not want to follow my father's path
accept his wealth, four paid years in university, etc...

some gifts are poisonous and choking...

in the situation of two of the men who let me have free reign of their wealth
i thought of what you said
and remembered
that when i first was given these gifts
i tended to them so lovingly and carefully
out of graditude
but now i've noticed they are not situations i can grow in
more so
no matter how well i care for them
they are decaying
for the Owners of the wealth don't manage them well

the inheritor of a scattered and tired crown
that isn't mine

i will admit to having enjoyed many dreams that weren't mine to begin with
had many adventures on borrowed desires
because i have always been quite content to listen to the wind blow and watch the leaves fall
(in my quiet childhood)

i want to find my own path now
i have scraps of it
i want them whole
a suit i can wear

Vertical Prose