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February 7th, 2005

love from every direction @ 01:28 pm

Current Music: The One You Love-Rufus Wainwright-Want Two

they love me
they call me
and they're pushing love at me

i say
"i just want a place i can call my own that isn't dependant in any way on someone else loving me and me loving them"
which is impossible:
love being the force that makes things happen, that keeps things together
even a randomn apartment i would rent
the landlord would love me
and i would love him

but it would be professional!

every oppurtunity is some beautiful man saying
"i love you"
and what that means is
"i've waited my whole life for someone like you"

and maybe i've waited my whole life too
and it's time we're together

me and me
just for a little while

or is it cowardice?

dreams together are so much more sweet...
sour, bitter, meaty.

but there is no place to go alone
it is all an effort of cooperation

so i will not get my own place of just me, eh?

it's all about the loving and the sex and the wanting and the dreaming the desires...

but when am i going to get my own place to sit and read books?
and when would i do that anyway
me: always looking for love?

i keep saying "NO"
i keep holding up my hand
biting at the bit
chomping at the door
heels kicking up dust
sitting in the chair on the phone

i'm telling them to wait
i'm trying to take this slow
trying to ebb it out
so i don't lose myself in the tide

(when that's all it's ever wanted from me)
 
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From:thefrapp
Date:February 10th, 2005 07:41 pm (UTC)

You and Rufus

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"One Man Guy"

People will know when they see this show
The kind of a guy I am
They'll recognize just what I stand for and what I just can't stand
They'll perceive what I believe in
And what I know is true
And they'll recognize I'm a one man guy
Always was through and through

People meditate
Hey that's just great
Trying to find the inner you
People depend on family and friends
And other folks to pull them through

I don't know why I'm a one man guy
Or why I'm a one man show
But these three cubic feet of bone and blood and meat are all I love and know

'Cause I'm a one man guy in the morning
Same in the afternoon
One man guy when the sun goes down
I whistle me a one man tune

One man guy a one man guy
Only kind of guy to be
I'm a one man guy
I'm a one man guy
I'm a one man guy is me

I'm gonna bathe and shave
And dress myself and eat solo every night
Unplug the phone, sleep alone
Stay way out of sight
Sure it's kind of lonely
Yeah it's sort of sick
Being your own one and only
Is a dirty selfish trick

'Cause I'm a one man guy in the morning
Same in the afternoon
One man guy when the sun goes down
I whistle me a one man tune
One man guy a one man guy
Only kind of guy to be
I'm a one man guy
I'm a one man guy
I'm a one man guy is me

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From:dominicvine
Date:February 11th, 2005 03:06 am (UTC)

Re: You and Rufus

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uhhh
thanks mark
but that's a song written by Rufus' Dad
who's kinda an alcoholic misanthropist
and it's about how he can't get along with anyone
---i've not resigned myself to that status yet
i just want some time on my own

--i've never had that!

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From:thefrapp
Date:February 11th, 2005 09:41 pm (UTC)

Re: You and Rufus

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Didn't know that his Dad wrote that.....interesting fact, nor did I know of his Dad's self-centered addiction. Makes sense now. Both my folks were strong "no-need" people, each with their own world...I was told early that I was born alone and that I would die alone and best make friends with yourself early. Cheery Germans. Hope all is well.

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