33.33 @ 12:14 am
"you are Radiant"
message received in under a minute
why such a strong simple impression?
I took the picture
while he was talking and looking at me
have I learned anything?
everyone old is new again
shuffle keeps playing Pulp's "Bad Cover Version"
and it continues in my head
sharing space with the Ink Spots, Flamingos, and Johnny Mathis
Tony said I'm such a romantic...
yet I keep at arm's length those who pour love at me
and yearn for the difficult
referencing music doesn't say what I mean to say
all my understandings through the years punctuated by songs...
and what if that's the good bits: all the personal bits
that tell my story
explain my view
and how I came to see things this way
but I don't know when I started
I can't remember...
or I haven't tried?
if I braid all my loose threads
can I climb back up the tower to my beloved long haired wife who's the essence of all my secrets?
the process is endless
there is no completing
"what happens after 33? why not 33.365?"
but the circle only has 360°
and the math doesn't work out
what was that old quote...?
"Time isn't true, the circle is not round"
Before The Rain...
I don't remember my name
I can't try and figure out the proper pronunciation forever
it's what I'm doing
That's what I do
my essential eternal task:
pronounce the name of Hashem
remember my every face
not to do it for everyone else
but for myself
it must be done anyway
the multitude of fragments are all knitted
I'll learn! I'll learn!
I have the tearing fingers
and the synthesizing heart!
I have the sword of Zain
I have the wand of Zion
on with it
and every other day
til I can sing right through