moment to moment
it takes every day
the creation of every day requires attention
breath by breath
say a prayer
hone through meditation
take a break
forget a while
have a drink
why smoke so much that you can't feel the effects?
perhaps you must smoke so much to keep from having to feel the whole
to create requires constant diligence
but that's impossible
in the lapses of living
growth happens
or entropy
surprise!
if only I were gifted with Melody
some creative bone...
to dream a future
to will a present into being...
a heart full of wishes
(how is this tale told)
held gently in the hands
to be like this
to be like this
holding the world
feeling it
feeling it softening in your hands
like this
malleable
make it
it is
make it
spending my soul
what I've got
I want to spend my soul
how many lives
from star to fly to flower
mouse, cat, bird
man
dumb man
powerful man
humble man
what accolades before dispersal?
the scribbled fears of using myself up
the clear desire to deplete myself entirely
empty myself out into the earth
star to dust
