Month of Aries
Sun in Aries
New Moon in Aries
Mercury is in Aries too, Freshly Retrograde
But then… So is Uranus, Jupiter… and Mars
and directly across from the Sun right now (and the rest of us)
is Saturn, in Libra
Pluto is Square us all in Capricorn
(the south node over there near Cancer… grand square, yo)
What's the prayer i've been on the last few days?
pressed through the mold by Saturn
what does Aries say?
what does that mean?
there are no details
it is a Declaration
in the incredible haze of strange neuro-pain kill errs
cannabis curry and drinks
the press of the weight of the cross
i was watching the sun set
and i thought about Now
and the looking-at-of-it
is Now finite?
No. anything marked in time is no longer Now
Time is Finite. (that is one of the main uses of time)
but Now is beyond Time
what did i hear yesterday?
"the i-ness of a person is like an actor: existing in eternity while time flows around him… his body changes, the world changes, set and setting, the other characters… but a good actor responds to change and continues to act… a bad actor would command things stay the same, which is not what this world is about, and not be able to keep up with the action…" (paraphrased… some links to LEAP the movie, i think)
i looked around in confusion
feeling the haze in my consciousness
the pain in my body
the utter distraction of my waving foundation
and claimed my space
no need to know why or how or worry about the outcome
the magic of Aries is NOW. THIS. HERE. and all of it is I AM
take the sun
the valley that belonged to those mountains: now MINE
all those trees
hawks flying over me
I AM the mountain
Michael recounts a dream
says "Everything in the dream is You. Tell it to me again but don't objectify the objects. say " I got out of myself, opened a drawer in myself, looked at myself and realized my relationship of myself with time, put on another self of myself and walked across myself to leave through myself and rush to catch myself…"
I AM that
what did Salvia show me opposite now?
in Libra last
when i Left
said "We Love You, and We Want You To Be Here"
a few days ago
a finger full of oil
i went into the waters
i felt myself
where the nothing had claimed domain
the empty pockets of eternity
what is Nothing?
what is Outside?
(this is… the day of mercury stationary retrograde, this is just before, when the moon was still in pisces, in the water, the nothing..)
Where is Nothing?
is Nothing inside Everything? is it also Everything? or is it a boarder around Everything? infinite OUTSIDE of Everything comprised of Nothing, which is the lack of Everything… but is a place transitable
What's in that Nothing?
Nothing knows my name…
"The Controlosphere has Disappeared! and it HURTS!"
in the end of winter
in the end of life
the infinite death there
Is Ouroboros infinite and complete?
is it nourishing itself of itself?
or is it spilling toxic shit into the infinity of nothing
swimming through space
the infinite potential
creating itself as it goes along
made and unmade in each breath?
are we eternal?
are we passing?
has the loop been detached?
some infinite spiral?
or a line with finite ends?
finding the emptiness in my Self
walking through the water
i asked this hollow questions
it knew all the answers
it told me the trouble with the Nothing inside me
was i could not Forget
i'm not a forgetter
i'm a know-everything-always
i'm just one of those
talk about it
type it out
scribble if ye must
i looked over at Conservatives
the idea of being able to do anything i want
(where is the meaning of that word in the actuality?)
and be able to forget all the atrocities i commit
to poison oneself
one cannot eat one's tail
that is a detachment
that's how i live? we live?
thrown into the Nothing
so must be feeding on Nothing
have we stopped eating Nothing?
i'm confused about this
i feel like i've been believing False Priests
something, some way i saw to be
and it was killing me
that's how we live
dying is done right Here, Now.
Find a thought, a feeling, a known truth. and forget it.
find a place in your self (body, universe) and fill it with that
then make it an "empty" space.
emptiness inside of me
there it is!
in the water…
while i'm dancing
turning on the Aries
some impossible light
all this space
all this emptiness
fill it with…
I Am Here!
This Is Mine (each empty space i find)
It is Healthy and Pure
the kapha Vata that had infused my body
into the water
feeling bubbles precipitating out through my skin
all that empty space
all that nothing
balanced in Satva
no questions or doubt right now
This clear opposition with Saturn gives a weight to truth
a clear balance
Now. Here. Everything. All.
nothing outside or inside of that.
no then or there.
just HERE NOW
The King of Limbs
being those neurons
antennae reaching out into reality
This is Mine
I am Here
I am Healthy and Pure
the slow time of healing
what time means
what it takes to grow in
i wanted to tell you before the moment past
i've been lost a little behind time
i sat in the dirt
on some old rug
tying leather to my beaded necklace
finding the alive-dead branch
being in the sun
being it all
watching the sun go down
So now the moon as moved into Taurus
there it is
maybe next month i can feel the sun in Taurus, new moon in Taurus
but nothing will be as strong as this Now
these last few days in a Grand Cross
some glaring over confidence
the magic of Aries
lost to the details of function
but fully embodied in being
all of that grappling
putting in the place
'ere i am, J.H.
i'm just little pink plastic bags blowing down the highway