my first time to Fire Island was alright
I got a bit red
I walked the beach
the trees
the boardwalks
I imagined people I knew there
imagined myself there
imagined myself in a bath house
in palm springs
I was happier by far here
what a strange alternate reality
open ended
plenty of deer
and flighty queers
well, we're all in this together
I'll see this clearly some day

today had no triumphs
just today
and what I learned is for another day
now I'm home
and starting all over again
building supports for my roots

of yeah!

five days of antibiotics
well the color of my phlegm has cleared
oh, I'm still coughing a bit
I just need to reassemble myself
I guess I'm scared

scared
no room for fear
I talk to strangers
embarrassed by the morass I'm in
Mosquitos here
constant
and other vampires
I bed for
I'm sure

I only know now
I must rest

thank you!

.iP