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December 30th, 2008

a little blow out @ 02:42 am

and yeah
i meant to write that last entry two hours ago
but i had to get lost on silverdaddies and blow my load
so much for a week
i tried to share it with the flesh
but what can we do?

anyway
then i wrote that. . .

then i sent to my SD profile and added this:

was just in indiana for a week
gave my dad a massage again
again: he grabbed my hand
but did it in a public room
still felt a strong energy through him. . .

and a few days before, we were alone in a deer blind in the woods
and it felt like it does when i'm with any other man who wants to have sex with me but doesn't know how to broach the subject
... just with way too much context

it makes my heart heavy
such a lonely man
- i don't want to be such a lonely man
yet when i see such lonely men (on here or in real time)
i always want to reach out to them, through them
some how together with them
let them know they are loved and not alone

but i can't be someone's life-line
i'm working on being my own

... i wish i lived in a place of a thousand men
all sleeping in a big pile with eachother
cooking for eachother
massaging eachother
fucking eachother like mad
collapsed in happy piles

or just one man
who made love like poetry
like ritual
dynamic, engaged, empowered

i'm obviously not ready for either
or i'd have both

love ya all,
these are my wishes for the New Year.
 
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