constantly talking about not falling in love anymore
or with what signs

and he says
"not doing the soul-mate thing again for awhile... like til when I'm 60" ( he's my age )

and feeling stupid for looking at him too much
or dumb for wanting to hold his hand on the car ride home
but sharing a Sarsaparilla and Cream Soda with him

the water was more beautiful
as was the sky
the blackberries more complex
the drinks more rich

maybe I've just not been here in a while
or maybe I AM a romantic...


or maybe I'm just the sort of guy who can only have what's impossible to live with