the shave

working for kwai in Santa Cruz
HIV testing
feeling like he knows me feeling but is purposely ignoring them to get what he wants
the emotional cobwebs in the house

4th billy gathering
(leo)

Beijing
what?
the heat
the pork!
the street food (carob bun, crispy crep thing)
street sweeper
tiantan park
dongden park
stool massage
great wall
Tom
djong quai
"just in their head"
"for the best for china"
"so glad they opened tibet to us"
2008 hosting

Mongolia
rotten animal food
cracks in the pavements
lack of coverings
filthiest
letting it go

leaving town:
bubonic plague
the van
the shaking
the mounds of rocks
the connstant talking of the professor
sexual tension
and abstinance

not robert anyway
fuck

the gers
the herbs
the herbalist
mountain monastery being rebuilt

fly dung
the horses
love!
the horses
day five
fresh meat

the riding
discrepencies
sink holes
perma frost
wrestling
drinking
green-beret/rodeo clown
up the hill one violent red morning to give my most precious to the oovum

trash that does not rot

yes, the beautiful lake

and hot springs
and
tomarow

whores in the hotel
strippers
monasterymissing the flight
beijing

a little more stressed
trash cans?
grrr
flight home

riding the bike
finishing the job
heading to SF
jim: 9/11
tieawaz/ public enemy

the biggest tragedy
fuck this shit

hermitage

drunken jag

alone time

web cam
bear411/bearwww
re-introducing....: Porn!

indian food
mom
hot springs

art of living
woman's tea

dan kemp

hawaii
ticket
"we'll still be here after you're gone"

seattle
ice-dildo
ass massage
drunken jag: i do this to survive
not acceptable

joe!
transformers (ugh)
heavy boots, walking. heavy balls, belly

fuck this shit

Europe


sick (sf first, valentine)
einhoven
maastrict
belgium
amersfort
delft
amsterdam
robert/elvis
jan

leo gone

the princess
the hat!
poor leno

hans

laagte kadijk

stuck in the swamp
no money

friend
no friend

american are hot
oh no!

long nights
jack
argos
verticle: no one to get horizontal with
loving leo
nights in white satans.
worst thing to ever do, to be damned to love like that

breaking free

before that, though
die koperwelten
carneval in koeln

so then
back to koeln
and gumersbach with frank
andreas...
so down to freiburg to meet patrick
for a trim