because writing about this part of my life takes many many hours every day
which i cannot give it right now
but it is my devotion this summer
i will not be blogging it
so i can make it raw-er and flowy-er and then can make a book out of it
i'll post about that, though
so you won't miss out on it, if you want it
you can read a bit of my notes, which is the way i am completing this project.
i turned 21 in Portland
to new york
Hello beautiful man!
running through the water deluge, the strawberry, the gutters full, the air, the rivers to jump over
taking everything in stride
panic attack, more healing at the springs
robert, job offer
indiana: i'm a guru
lothlorien: the strangling and dying of nature
the life-sucking cat
the big sexy bear monster
and the magic of my hands
a day, a week, a month of bad british accents
the faeries, the gold/silver cross
being in my body, just like that
being in arizona, being in arizona, being in arkansas
the rain fall
rainbow death camp
perfect : we know how to control god.
teaching the aries to be grounded, drowning
a sort of home
larry: kansas... South Africa!
new york, yes...
face lift, tummy tuck, cigarettes. 18yo 50yo.
manhattan burger, LA stop
we haven't fully exploited this culture
banana like an icecream cone
let the spirit leave the meat
milkwook and silk wood
the bars, that is, the drink, the marriage
the phone call
i'm going to live in new york
i'm going to heal the entire city
i'm doing to die
fag jokes around the table
gone gone gone
we think you should....