a friend sent me this in a message
and it's exactly how i felt..
even how i feel!
it's been a few years of grinding my heels in the dirt
pulling on the horses reins
lettind the tension out of the sails
... all these rigs i had
that style of living did so many things for me
like an organ
it nourished me and cleansed me
so i'm facing substatial difficulties in all this stillness and STUFF
still, yes, i'm happy
i'm happy to be here
to have my own place
have friends i see continually
all the treasures the grounded take for granted
it is worth the greatest effort.