i woke up at exactly 3:33 this morning

i remember i was having some dream that i can't recal now

but i remember the feeling of cold
and the positivity that someone had come into the apartment
and was going to obliterate me

i didn't call out

it was hot
and sweaty
i was sticking to the sheets

i woke with a start and looked up and saw the clock on the cable box read 3:33
and i lay down
trying to convince myself to go back to sleep

but a voice in my head told me this was deathly important
and i better not ignore it

i had no idea what it was

it was Fear
the voice made clear

Fear of what?

i tried to say
it was nothing

but i suddenly felt cold
felt deathly cold
a shiver

i got up to turn off the fan
and looked down the hall

looked down the hall into the darkness
at the figure standing just inside the threshold from the door

i stared into the dark
and the dark
it stared back

i told myself it was stupid
it said to go get the black sheet and wrap myself in it

it's SO HOT

i lay down
and shivered
so so so cold

i told myself it wasn't cold
and there was nothing to fear

what is fear?
just the fear of the unknown
just the fear of death
and i didn't need to fear that
and it wasn't cold
and there was no one
nothing in this apartment that was going to get me

going to obliterate me


but i was very scared
and very cold
i pulled the sheet around me