while i was talking on the phone with bridget:
i'm really fucking tired
so i can't do what i need to do
this is upsetting my friends who are along for the journey with me
and trying their patience
but i'm too exhausted to pilot my vehicle
seeking refuge (in realities) with friends i love and respect
is not what i need now
i will still have my needs violated/ignored
because i am exhausted
i will respond inappropriately
-- this has been happening over and over to increasing degrees.
very rarely do i understand my dreams so clearly
this just makes my situation clear
it does not give advice.
Still, knowing is half the battle, eh?
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