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July 8th, 2004

my room @ 10:09 pm

Current Mood: home
Current Music: Jay on the didgeridoo

y'all've heard that thing Da-Vinchi said, right?

he'ws always talkin'bout how he
like
Free'd his sculptures from the blocks of stone...

Well
i've created my room in much the same manner.

it's been a long time since i had a room

and
i mean
a long time.

i left my room in 1997
stayed in other people's houses all that year
and at the beginning of '98
i was renting a room in the basement in denver
but
i didn't really make it MY room
there was nothing in it
it was just where i slept between working
and... whatever else i did in Denver...

in arizona
same thing
the only rooms i had
were other people's room
and if i had "my own"
it was filled with their stuff
mine was just a visitors.
and i went back to my parent's house to de-construct and obliterate my room there...

i had a few rooms in '99
but none of them were really mine
though i rented a room in portland
my room was a storage space
nothing on the walls
no furniture:
i slept on a nicely layed out pile of blankets against the wall
surrounded by haphazad boxes
or i slept outside in the back yard:
sleeping bag in the grass.

an attempted shared apartment with a lover...
but was it mine?
i specifically remember putting up decorations and getting critiqued about them
but i DID get to decorate
...
hmmm
maybe i kinda had a room then
but it was never my own
it was very much Ours
(ah, the nostalgia in that...)

in 2000
borrowed rooms in many places
NYC, africa, arizona, arkansas
eventually the hills of california
where i specifically had a Tree
in a forest
with a pile of blanets layed nicely under a hut of branches
under the tree...
candels and clothing around
perhaps this defined my space
though the darkness could always get in...

and when i got a Room
(after the rain came and washed me all away)
it was shared with my Doppelganger, Zygoat.

2001
was so much travelling
a tent in mongolia
and eventually the Hermitage
and though i got to take it over
and make it My house
i didn't have a My room
i slept in Leo's room
(in Leo's house)

2002
i had my own apartment
a few times
but really
it was just borrowed places
in Amsterdam
Switzerland
Italy
Lyon
even London
but not mine...

2003
i had Vic, my van
and that was my room
my house
my car
but it's not the same, is it?

now
i have a room
i've had it for months this year
this year
officially into its second half
i've now taken this room
removing all of its original set-up
and having reconstructed it
from the wreckage of Leo leaving this house
and all my collected STUFF from these travels
beginning to take shape around me
as if i'm freeing my domesticated self from the Ore of my wild life.

to sit here
on the firm bed
cushion against the wall
tea-tray over legs with lap top
candle burning...


Behind me
my buzzing back
Jay is practicing his Didge[ridoo]
Bridget is resting her body in the bathtub
first bath in weeks
they are resting

today i have eaten...

i had vegetables in my miso soup...
i had peaches..

i had sprouted wheat manna bread with dates and cinnamon
covered with raw almond butter
and some sourghoum syrup

and then a nibble at the wonderful granola/trail-mix that Jeff made for me
not very sweet
savory:
ginger/cayanne/cumin
oats, honey, raisins

my room has a floor now

yes,
still a pile of books on the floor
a pile of beautiful stones
some clothes
and a large box (one of two) unfiled herbs...

in a few days
this room will be somewhere for me to come back to.
 
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From:dominicvine
Date:July 9th, 2004 04:09 pm (UTC)
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it's not an apartment
it's a room
in a house
on top of a mountain
2.5 hrs north of san francisco...

(grin)

i've been in the redwoods
and i've been in forests in brazil
so i guess i've been in rainforests
but i should go to more
yeah
how will you come along...?
have to let yourself go for that

here, just take my hand and fly with me...
(wink)

i'll be in NYC in september, i think...
i'll probably come north for a bit
i could visit
and eat some of your lemons...
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From:chefxh
Date:July 9th, 2004 09:25 am (UTC)

moving through rooms

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I had my own room

for the first time since 1989

in my little apt. in Phoenix in 2000

then I invited a lover to share it

and it wasn't mine anymore

(nor was he)

then I stayed in a wonderful luxurious guest room in my buddy Jeff's house in SF for 6 months

but he really didn't want me there

so

I rented a sunny room in Ray and Mike's flatt at Waller and Webster

but I had to leave it

to go be an intern

and because Mike and I didn't get along as roomies

I had a room in Cheney

the biggest nicest bedroom I ever had

but the housemates broke my heart and pissed me off and I had to go

I shared a room with the boy who humped, then dumped me

but it was his room.

now my stuff is stacked around in a room in this house

but the closet is full

of possessions of dead people

their furniture

chairs stacked on the desk

so I can't unpack

but at least I have a bed.

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