August 16th, 2011


(conversation finished after the call ends)

(conversation finished after the call ends)

you will eventually learn to say
"there was some drama there"
instead of recapitulating some tedious story that has nothing to do with either of us

editing your self is only one of the many forms of discipline you could benefit from

and hearing you accuse yet another person from giving you attention
when you have been avoiding mine and his is just nauseating
we're both tired of your blind and selfish actions
though I know a steam roller is ironing out your life right now
you will come to understand this fear and weight is a blessing
because it is inspiring you actually deal with some of your shot instead of continually putting it off

I felt the same thing when I was your age
trite as it always is
"it gets better"
and it does
and it gets difficult again later
but the simplest lesson you can learn from this may be
meeting the world at least half way keeps it from having to smack your lazy terrified ass into gear to get you to the place you need to be

you have a place in this world
and it loves you
just keep breathing and do you best to fucking show up

now sleep!
I'm going to!
I've been laying here naked for three hours playing solitaire on my iPhone whilst listening to Stephen Fry read me Harry Potter after a day of my old antics (three men! that'll teach me!) and I'm exhausted

may our dreams bring us pleasures
and easy answers
to easy questions



a few people have commented I've been off the map

maybe that's just how they feel
but I probably have
I certainly feel clouds where my fingers should be
clunky eyes
such is such
in such a time
don't take it too seriously
I'm stepping out
and I'll be back soon
with yet some more alterations

from the other side

dominic vine



un-dream. Aug 16. 7;53.

un-dreaming. Aug 16. 7;53.

car alarms blaring in the street just outside my window
which is next to my head snapped me out
but didn't that just happen?

i had very elaborate dreams
like a fascinating movie
they are all gone now
I can see snatches
but all dark
I cannot follow a thread

I have not been able to recount my dreams since you two were here last
maybe it's the waning moon
or the retrograde
but I am going to stop trying to recount my dreams for a while
- I did it for a week (almost... )
them felt shut out

if one calls me to write it I will
and/or I will resume when i return from my travels


psychic / chart

I would like to find my a psychic
ah, a seer
who can see the whole scope of things
and draw me out a chart
to show me how far I've fallen from the virtues I was born with
and how much I've surpassed the challenges
simple up and down lines layer over eachother
like a history of the weather
but with a clear moral compass
obvious directions
clear colors

something known
and some suggestion
towards direction