February 3rd, 2011



I really miss having fun
I'm so dragged out
it's so hard to have fun
when you're friend is dying
I wish he'd die already
so we could have fun again

onward with the slow living!
onward with the waiting
more fucking hand-wringing
and passing by the beauty
with friend's un-enabling joy

"I was a Hater in the depths of emotional hibernation"

more drinking
and blinking out