August 25th, 2010


my first lesson

this instrument
like this world
was not perfect when I got here
my mistake
to believe it can be perfect
in the way I think it should be
you agree
like that
it could be perfect

but it never was
and with what I have
I cannot make it so
not now
not on my own

but i have made it better
which is what I can do
part of what I want
so I must be contented with that
for now

that's all I can talk about
the rest I learned
the teaching
was unwordable
something about moving too fast
which is all out grounding
which has to do with insecurity
fear of father
relating in family
with women
mother? sister?

"the way it's all gonna be"