July 22nd, 2009


dead friends

last week
I logged into yahoo messenger
which I nearly never use
and there was a from my friend Rick

who has been dead two years, I think

option scenarios ran through my head:
is he still alive? faked his death to get out of...?
a friend of his who knows his accounts?
his wife?

but the reasons didn't matter
it just made me miss him
in the way we can only miss the dead

a few more things to say
a few more things to do together
never gonna happen

many friends have had friends and relatives die
and it's set me to wondering how I'd feel
... and Rick wasn't a close friend...
but a glorious monster
I was happy to know was extant...

back at ya
I'm here