January 12th, 2008


being here

in meditation
or masturbation
I noticed how far away I was

and replying to some farmer from a fetish site
I said that farmers were more physically present than nearly anyone else in our society is able to be

it clicked in
late last night
that I could choose

I have that option

being aware of it
moment by moment
as I hold my posture or take a deep breath
I can be aware of everything that is around (and inside of me)

unlike journaling
or reading a book

I came out of the train into father demo square
and saw how beautiful this place is
and felt it

now Jorge is here
- we're off to eat a play