January 30th, 2007

day of green eyes

oh, i understand

yesterday's dream became clear to me
while i was talking on the phone with bridget:

i'm really fucking tired
so i can't do what i need to do

this is upsetting my friends who are along for the journey with me
and trying their patience

but i'm too exhausted to pilot my vehicle

seeking refuge (in realities) with friends i love and respect
is not what i need now

i will still have my needs violated/ignored

because i am exhausted
i will respond inappropriately

-- this has been happening over and over to increasing degrees.

very rarely do i understand my dreams so clearly

this just makes my situation clear
it does not give advice.

Still, knowing is half the battle, eh?

------------ i need nourishment! --------------
[all neon-like]