especially the face for conversations as i've had those pictures in that directory most of the year but just got around to making its face tonight (and a hell of a lot of debugging too)
i'm doing this yeast cleanse which means taking six pills a day of pills chock full of capryllic acid, pau d'arco, tea trea oil and garlic but it more means i'm not eating any sugar or... anything sweet.
it's slightly frustrating but in reality i'm noticing it's keeping me from eating crap and when i'm snacky i'm eating healthier things
-- i really like this shouldn't i just do it all the time?
though sweets are tempting they never make me feel good i wonder if i could just be off them . . . (i was about to quantify that, but what i mean is just that -- off them)
refined sugar/bread/rice/etc are just drugs anyway shouldn't i break that addiction?
i keep getting smacked with the feeling of how many people there are in the world.
and i don't need to be famous coz... even if is were, like (um) Johnny Depp famous there would be many many people who didn't know about me and didn't care about me.
where did this fucking fame bug come from? am i so lonely?
there are SO many people in the world just living their lives
finding something to do with every day...
as i packed up the my stuff in goat's house today putting my stuff into storage yet again i thought of all the days people have all the life lived all the life wasted
and is there really anything wrong with just watching TV and smoking pot all day? or drinking?
i guess i just want to have a full life experience and some sort of noteriety is involved in that do i have enough? it's a constant being, it needs to be nourished
and then my body and then my emotions and then money and then stuff
today i was daunted many times by the immense puzzle that is life as yet again i feel like i have to address square one.
[ until i make my own square one, (yes i see now, N) i will keep getting people trying to give me their square one... which they're doing because they don't really have one either. ]
i left the shop so late last night everything was frozen over
i let the truck idle for a while warming up
i walked around looking at the moon.
when i got in the truck i switched the parking lights on just so i could read the dashboard and when enough of the ice on the windscreen had melted i pulled out
4:30 am no cars on the road i was over half way back home before i noticed i hadn't turned the driving lights on
the moon was SO amazingly bright i could see just fine
