in the morning i woke drenched in sweat and took the sea salts i had bought for cleaning my nose down to the bath room and took a shower then filled the tub and soaked for half hour in sea salts
then went to lay in the small bed room with the sunlight more sleeping more turning being too hot being too cold
eventually i felt almost human and sat to do a little internet stuff feeling like i MUST plan my trip for Madrid snot slobbering
i got out of bed to piss in a cup and snort it BURNED my nose but maybe that was from the poppers that had splashed up there from the leather men? or from how dehydrated i was?
i vowed to drink more water and drank
and pissed and snorted and burned
eventually it was time to go: tonight is the night we plan the ritual for tomorrow's Banquet of Death ughhhh
can i make it?
the walk to Sebastian's house was really only 10 minutes i could do it... and i did
crashed on the couch as soon as i got there
but enjoyed meeting all the people beautiful people interesting people so full of light
a beautiful girl, Tania, was on the Lemonade fast... kept it in a thermos: warm good she gave me some
a very handsome man i didn't know his name we kept locking eyes...
when it got time for us to do Breema excersizes we choose eachother and just touching him felt good
cuddle i wanted to sleep...
we watched a TV movie about Shamans and how they take people to death to heal them and how you have to do the work no matter what you call it: disease, virus, AIDS:: the world has it and we have to help a korean woman who dances... dances you to death then leaves you there for a while to heal everything in your life scared the other shamans... thought she was killing people!
and some guy outside of bangkock... who got a recipie from angels while sleeping over 15 years to make Golden Ash Powder it would cure AIDS and get rid of HIV
over and over
the world of faith is so much more interesting and powerful than this limited world of answers we live in
but ugh that was enough i crawled home and was asleep before midnight