i often hear that
in love
we are not supposed to correct
or fix
eachother

just accept eachother for who we are
and help eachother live...

Yeah?

well
i agree to a certain extent
BUT

there is no point in being in eachother's life but to enrich it
-- well, maybe just witness eachother...
but subtle help
support..
positive loving growth!

better than just watching eachother dissapear into our nerosis...
enabling our co-dependance

common, love..
common.

Yeah.
so i'm in p-town

Ptown
ProvienceTown
yeah.

caught a bus from NYC up to Providence, RI
got a ride from a friend of a friend of mine from there...

turns out he's a friend of many of my friends:

we're paralelle boys in the world of bears
yeah
another
brother
alright.

went to the beach
went to the house
cleaned out a room to make a guest room for ourselves
then headed out to the town...

-- it's been a long time since i've been so agressively ignored...
people would stare at me
and when i felt it
turned to look at them
they'd look away

it became a comedy act

i commented on this to my friends
and they said
"oh, it's the Boston Compulsion-- everyone is so fucking insecure... generally, though, the more attitude... the more they ignore you the more they want you"

yeah, played that game before.

a guy i talked with on line before coming out here said this:

"GREETINGS DOMINIC .
THANKS FOR YOUR MESSASGE . WONDERFUL PROFILE . VERY HANDSOME AND SEXY . I AM PREETY SHY WHEN IT COMES TO "CLOSING THE DEAL" SOOOO . IT WOULD BE NICE TO MEET YOU ... AND WE WILL SEE HOW WE FEEL ... I AM IN NEED OF TACTILE ATTENTION . MY TYPE "BODY" IS NOT APPRECIATED HERE ON THE PENINSULA OF BROKEN BOYS ... SO SUPERFICIAL . IT SADDENS ME AT TIMES ... IT MAKES MY DAY WHEN SOMEONE LIKE YOURSELF FINDS MEN LIKE MYSELF ATTRACTIVE . "

it instantly clicked over to "the island of broken boys" in my head
which i didn't remember where that came from
S said "Ruolph the Red Nose Reindeer.... you know, with Burl Ives?"
both of us, syncopated, murmered
"Big Daddy"