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angry about being angry about it @ 05:50 pm

Current Music: i'd better be quiet now -- elliot smith

drag kicking, screaming
DO IT, LIKE THIS

like this...

because he's never done it before
and i ask him to
and he says "yes..."
surprised
but should i be surprised when he backs out at the last second?

no.

angry though.

here in the house
alone
today
got angry
felt these voices

starting to believe in smudging... serious
this house of kept secrets
smoking pot
avoidance

now he's sick in bed

YEAH RIGHT, motherfucker

and since i paid him attention
he's shut up entirely
i can't help it!
sometimes i even try to be nice!
not often... not good at it, not interested
seeth, quietly

how to interract?
and why bother?

back on wings up to the hermitage..

wait.
it's raining
give it a moment.

last night i felt like i lashed out
what mood was i in?
what's in the house?

reading his post
it just sounded Stupid
silly
absurd!

don't take your friend seriously when he's being absurd
you know him better than that
punch him in the shoulder and tell him you will not play this game

keep dancing
keep walking on

keep playing
not this game where you're dumb
coz you're not

not this game where you can't say anything, can'd do anything, always wrong
it's a Dumb Game: NO

saying NO a lot leaves you alone.
even to dumb things.
gotta go throughd dumb things being a human
gotta.

dumb.
walk around this city

fine, dominic
be alone and angry
it's raining
sure
they bears are arriving for IBR
go smile at them
be a lover
pretend to be a lover

something
something better than just angry

i'm just writing to get the anger out
it doesn't deserve to be directed at anyone
but you can't leave it in a box alone
have to do something with it

here
just this.

fine.


meanwhile, back at the ranch
i just went to Magnet to get my HIV, Syphallis and Ghonorrea/chlamydia tests
Yeah!

while i was there
i got a free shiatsu massage
gave him a 10 buck tip

give it away...

the guy testing me doesn't think i have syphallis or ghonorrea
but he does think i've got infections in my body
but he thinks it's just general winter fatigue and choughs and plane illnesses
yeah, ok

and the shiatsu guy said i've been masturbating too much
and have a weak digestion
yeah, i know

how do any of us take care of ourselves?
 

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