all the thoughts that came up as the evening wore on @ 11:22 pm
it's so common that men say
"be a man"
supress your emotions
the waves of water rushing through everyone
when it gets too intense
when the body opens up to the waves
water pours down the face
to be present with the surrounding waters
keep the body attuned to it
through the process of clearing our sevles
to be able to
be present with the whole
to not be a rock
separate and complete
to be a man
something entirely different than being human.
similar to everyone in our society
i want things that are impossible in this world
-- to fly while awake, to walk the ley lines...
communicate with the world with my full body
similar to the corporates and the politiks
who want to rape and pillage forever and ever
i continue in my wants
blowing their petty reality away
we're making the same mistake
i deem things "pretentious"
far too often
they come from the mind!
not from the heart!
not from the body!
not from the actuality of life!
but some divorced IDEA
that's enough for most people.
i ask too much
i said that a few weeks ago
i KNOW i ask too much of people
and yet i refuse to stop asking too much
asking them things they CANNOT do
be in integrity
stop re-creating their miserable stories
and i ask them, DEMAND of them
in ways they cannot understand
in ways that are useless to them
i get that back
demands in another language
expectations way beyond the reality of the situation
so hungry and so blind.