chump:

i'm amazed at how the deal with goat went down
per script
as with yakov

the same
"we can't be friends if you don't respect me"

how can i respect you if you don't respect yourself?

offering me a house
then
just not

oops, sorry: i was scared

having no control of themselves.

and when they got to have their parting words with me
in the name of Morality
they called me a whore and made grand pronouncements of how they would live my life differently

Great.

i love them both
for what they are

anachronisms

but to spend lots of time with them would just be a waste of time
life
energy

to spend all my life energy and time taking care of them
because they're not doing it themselves

all aries can't be like that

what are the other ones like?



i guess i'm a sucker for it
they got my number


"never again is what you swore the time before"


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party
last night

i drank too much wine
ate cookies, cake

they emphasized a few times how we all had to go and change our costumes

i wasn't wearing anything fabulous
but i made due

braided my beard tight into four points
braided my mustache for the first time ever

wraped my hair with my pashmena
then twisted both on either side

when i walked up to Goat and Mirror
they didn't recognize me
"and you are?"

serious
--- just a flick of the aura is all it takes.


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yet again
i've left

today i packed up and put away every trace of me

well
i left some books out on purpose for him to read

went to the shop
did the same


all the space i was taking up

and all the shit i've got!


this is all in accord

moving on again

to find / make my own home

--
and six packages to send out in the mail tomorrow!