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January 8th, 2007

collections for leaving town @ 12:32 am


i'm amazed at how the deal with goat went down
per script
as with yakov

the same
"we can't be friends if you don't respect me"

how can i respect you if you don't respect yourself?

offering me a house
just not

oops, sorry: i was scared

having no control of themselves.

and when they got to have their parting words with me
in the name of Morality
they called me a whore and made grand pronouncements of how they would live my life differently


i love them both
for what they are


but to spend lots of time with them would just be a waste of time

to spend all my life energy and time taking care of them
because they're not doing it themselves

all aries can't be like that

what are the other ones like?

i guess i'm a sucker for it
they got my number

"never again is what you swore the time before"


last night

i drank too much wine
ate cookies, cake

they emphasized a few times how we all had to go and change our costumes

i wasn't wearing anything fabulous
but i made due

braided my beard tight into four points
braided my mustache for the first time ever

wraped my hair with my pashmena
then twisted both on either side

when i walked up to Goat and Mirror
they didn't recognize me
"and you are?"

--- just a flick of the aura is all it takes.


yet again
i've left

today i packed up and put away every trace of me

i left some books out on purpose for him to read

went to the shop
did the same

all the space i was taking up

and all the shit i've got!

this is all in accord

moving on again

to find / make my own home

and six packages to send out in the mail tomorrow!

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Date:January 8th, 2007 08:41 am (UTC)
Mary J. Blige has this great song, "Press On." In the lyrics, there is the line: Life Has A Way Of Making You Live It.

That is what is going on here. You are living, in a time when people are afraid of living. And afraid of giving themselves wholeheartedly.

For the record, this generosity does not make you a chump.
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Date:January 8th, 2007 02:00 pm (UTC)

This Being Human

Rumi - Guest House
This being human is a guest house
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

Take care...it's slow work.
Hope to visit with you someday
when you're back in the land of
Queen Califia, by the bay...Mark
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Date:January 8th, 2007 04:17 pm (UTC)

Re: This Being Human

as a matter of fact
i arrive in oakland today at 4pm

what's your night like?

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Date:January 9th, 2007 03:59 am (UTC)

Re: This Being Human

ooops, haven't been around the pc...
maybe when you get back from up north..
I'll try calling you tomorrow. Mark
Date:January 9th, 2007 10:33 am (UTC)


Hi my friend, hope you are doing fine, wherever you are.
I do miss our contact. and its a pity you didnot return to amsterdam yet
the weather here is quite warm at the moment for the time of the year
I miss you and love you
please contact me soon again, if you have some spare time to do so
Happy healthy NEW 2007 !!

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