i'm amazed at how the deal with goat went down
as with yakov
"we can't be friends if you don't respect me"
how can i respect you if you don't respect yourself?
offering me a house
oops, sorry: i was scared
having no control of themselves.
and when they got to have their parting words with me
in the name of Morality
they called me a whore and made grand pronouncements of how they would live my life differently
i love them both
for what they are
but to spend lots of time with them would just be a waste of time
to spend all my life energy and time taking care of them
because they're not doing it themselves
all aries can't be like that
what are the other ones like?
i guess i'm a sucker for it
they got my number
"never again is what you swore the time before"
i drank too much wine
ate cookies, cake
they emphasized a few times how we all had to go and change our costumes
i wasn't wearing anything fabulous
but i made due
braided my beard tight into four points
braided my mustache for the first time ever
wraped my hair with my pashmena
then twisted both on either side
when i walked up to Goat and Mirror
they didn't recognize me
"and you are?"
--- just a flick of the aura is all it takes.
today i packed up and put away every trace of me
i left some books out on purpose for him to read
went to the shop
did the same
all the space i was taking up
and all the shit i've got!
this is all in accord
moving on again
to find / make my own home
and six packages to send out in the mail tomorrow!