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December 29th, 2006

all the fatties at walmart @ 02:27 am

the shop next door to goat's shop
is an apolstry shop

there is a guy with a fu-man-chu
who always wears plaid
and stands outside smoking

... it takes all my effort
each time i see him
not to ask him if he wants his dick sucked.

whatever it is that makes me stay up and do things here at the shop at 2 am
it works for the people next door

they're often here when i am
but there's more than one
--- i can hear them talking to eachother now..

not loud enough to understand what they're saying...

but i can hear...


i was noticing today that i've been mostly just writing about all my thinking
and feeling
and that sort of thing
so i wanted to lighten up a bit
and write about sex

... i've not been having much, mind you

what, with my boy friend dumping me and me living in the middle of a forest
(HA! Horse Apples!)

i had a client today
with the largest chest i've ever seen in my life
huge barrel
big all over..

i'm not going to write about what we did
(if you're reading this)
but i am going to write what he reminded me of:

last year i had a client that hired me... for a few days.

he showed me pictures of him the year before with a beard
-- he was beautiful
... he was a Very big man
huge belly
-- he hired me because he thought he couldn't have sex without paying for it
(not the situation with the guy today)

which blew my mind...

so i set out to prove him wrong:
i took pictures of him
his face, his balls, his big belly
and created a profile for him on one of my favourite sites...

-- he's never hired me again
last i heard
he was getting all sorts of action
from every direction

(that doesn't, of course, mean he didn't have to deal with his insecurites and stuff still... coz he did, but... at least he was getting laid for the price of them instead of cash )

... share the loving...

and, damn
i wish WalMart sold their men..

i don't know what the fuck was up tonight
but i left the hotel and went to the W to get some ginger root (can't find it anywhere else round these parts without driving into nashville)
and i passed an entirely hot muscle daddy coming out in his sweats
bling round his neck
shaved head
i did my best to turn it
but he walked on, with his huge packages of toilet paper..

the whole mart seemed to be filled with them tonight
ideal bear fatties
big bellies streatching out thermals
little goatees of all colours
shouting at their sons
playing with their babies

it was like being a bear gathering
except i was in a walmart in middle tennesee...

i was panting
following guys up aisles

but no one here thinks i'm gay
they're just a bit scared of me
so avert their glances...

i did have some fun sex with a guy a few nights ago in N
a big round brown bear, with a beard
sweet fellow who used to come out to these gatherings

he told me he liked having sex in europe
in nyc

it was fun

but he's a hunter
and he prefers having to seduce people the hard way

the eye contact
the smiles
the chit-chat, with the quick nods and winks

i can understand that
it's certainly more of a challenge
and when you get to our age (well, he's older, but doesn't my experience count?)
we know that the sex probably isn't going to blow our mind
so the seduction becomes part of the foreplay.

... meanwhile
i started a yeast cleans today
my mouth is already Dragon's Breath.

Goat is gone for a week or so

i'm flying to California on the 8th

probably back here February 20th

maybe Key West after that....

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Date:December 30th, 2006 03:46 am (UTC)

W!S! ?

... i watched them sporatically over the last week with Goat

... did you recognize Will Oldham and Devendra Banhart?

i wished i was watching it with someone who did.

after i watched them all
i went to the fan site to be sure that it really was Will Oldham and Devendra Banhart

they made no mention there
(but imdb confirmed my wonder)

but the fan site let me here what other people were saying.

... i've been having a few W!S! experiences over this last week
where i play an episode for someone
that is specifically hitting their life
( the "Science" episode: with all of it's Death references and BE A MAN right after goat said: "i want to watch something that makes me forget all about my dad )

the Ocean episode with a nice black guy in Nashville
... but there were so many racist and military attacks in that show
(and he spent most of his life in the army)

i thought Knowledge (and the accompanying featurette) were pretty amazing
but painful/sad to watch...

ahh. as a whole
i felt like they were attacking the world in a much broader spectrum in this season
ending with, of course, the destruction of themselves.

as it is
one of the reasons they are not doing a 3rd season
is because they pissed of MTV (which they were obviously trying to do)
who did not renew their contract

the season really tuned me into Chaos
when i was more tending towards order
... but i've found myself listening to electronic noise and visual distortion on the porn videos i've been getting
and really enjoying it...
luxuriating in the static

i think this season brought that further out in me...

i've pretty much watched them over and over and over
each of them at least twice already
and i like them more each time

but overall
they're not really constructive
they're just chaotic
and i have plenty of that in my make up already
so WS is kinda like a dirty pleasure..

goat said it's like Dirty Sex to him
feels really good while it's happening
but then he's left with a feeling he wishes he could wash off afterwards...

still... thanks for introducing it to me.

tell me your thoughts

(and fuck, did you click on the "... your prize" on the second disc?

i watched that a few times (on accident, looking for an easter egg (type 24 into your remote then hit enter) )
it gave me a fucking headache
but was a pretty amazing collage...
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Date:December 30th, 2006 06:38 am (UTC)

Re: W!S! ?

really love this icon...is it a really picture or
did you collage two?
sure is nice to find all these posts which seem more
hopeful than some of the other recents
Im just sitting here, floating, resting, was going to say useless,
but really think I'm recharging after some very busy times
just so damn Protestant work ethical I can't admit I rest and recharge
sometimes I really miss you babe! take care... wish I could see you
even w/ dragon breath
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Date:January 2nd, 2007 12:32 am (UTC)

All the Wonders...

Thanks Dennis...
i'm glad you like this Icon so much
in deference to that
i'm taking some extraordinary effort to respond!

it IS really a picture

have a look:


i took that in Spain last year in April

look at these posts for the
text: http://waltzingtree.livejournal.com/157720.html
and pictures: http://waltzingtree.livejournal.com/159447.html

-- the title i got from the song "Moon Shot" by Buffy Sainte-Marie
i've included a link to an MP3 of it here:
and a link to the cover version by Dean Wareham that introduced me to the song:

and yeah
i was in the darkness of my soul
(which i encourage everyone to do)
because of the new moon and the solstice together
but now the light is on its way back!
so comes hope..

thank you for your wishes
HUGS to you
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Date:January 2nd, 2007 12:47 am (UTC)

Re: All the Wonders...

I just wrote what I wrote before I saw this...
thanks for all the response...I remember this place
maybe you were sitting down in one pic too? haven't gone to look,
but I will! {hugggg}
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Date:January 2nd, 2007 06:21 am (UTC)

Re: All the Wonders...

wonderful full moon tonight and a crisp, cold, mostly clear night to see it
tried to make video, tho my digi never will focus on the moon's face
but works okay anyway...someday I'll put it behind something
and loved the songs...added it to my "dom stuff" music folder

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