listening to "somethings last a long time"

it is a teen-age nostalgia


it's clear to me that i just want friends
kids...

i'd like to live in a small american town somewhere
where i live a normal
simple
boring life

where i don't need a car

i can ride my bike around town

i can have friends i can see

we can have confusing dramas
about love

loving

their parents will be mad at me

i'll walk through the streets at night
talking to the trees
singing into the shadows

moon shadows everywhere

an ideal life
with all its mistakes
hopes never manifest
dreams lived every night
hearts pulled across blocks
through houses
past barking dogs
to stand outside windows
whispering
hoping they're still awake

but walking home alone anyway





can i still have that?

goat's just said he's done
not happy with our relationship
so we just are what we are

golly. he didn't last long, did he?

well
i'm hard
i'm a difficult one
but i'm not about to settle into someone else's life
i want my own

so i guess it's time i go get it


(again)