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December 22nd, 2006

it's so over @ 08:53 pm



listening to "somethings last a long time"

it is a teen-age nostalgia


it's clear to me that i just want friends
kids...

i'd like to live in a small american town somewhere
where i live a normal
simple
boring life

where i don't need a car

i can ride my bike around town

i can have friends i can see

we can have confusing dramas
about love

loving

their parents will be mad at me

i'll walk through the streets at night
talking to the trees
singing into the shadows

moon shadows everywhere

an ideal life
with all its mistakes
hopes never manifest
dreams lived every night
hearts pulled across blocks
through houses
past barking dogs
to stand outside windows
whispering
hoping they're still awake

but walking home alone anyway





can i still have that?

goat's just said he's done
not happy with our relationship
so we just are what we are

golly. he didn't last long, did he?

well
i'm hard
i'm a difficult one
but i'm not about to settle into someone else's life
i want my own

so i guess it's time i go get it


(again)

 
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From:uneasytruce
Date:December 23rd, 2006 04:23 am (UTC)
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Yes, you can still have the life you envision.

Begin where you are, right now.

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From:dominicvine
Date:December 23rd, 2006 04:39 am (UTC)
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of course...
there's no where else to start from...

but the thing about relationships...

they've got to be Co-Created

and that really only words when you've got two people on the same page

i don't think we are.


and that's alright

i've known that the whole time
it doesn't seem like a shock to me

just some famliar ache
like waking up with stiff fingers

it wears off through the day

i'll be OK
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From:dominicvine
Date:December 23rd, 2006 08:23 am (UTC)
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it's alright
i'm not really what he needs/wants anyway
and i've known that

and now he knows it too

i'd rather just be friends with him
and friends is a type of love


i think this is actually a healthy growth step

meanwhile
i just feel a little floaty.
From:redfurrybear
Date:December 23rd, 2006 03:07 pm (UTC)
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Yes, you are a difficult one. I sure found you difficult. But it had little to do with you, and everything to do with limits I placed on myself, and how available you made yourself to challenge those limits.

Don't change.
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From:dominicvine
Date:December 24th, 2006 03:29 am (UTC)
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(laughs)



i love ya Mikey...

or whomever you are...

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