... wa?
the night before
wednesday, right
i drove into nashville
client
very good
mmmm
i wish i would have recorded my monologue

drove back
to the shop
tired
tired
stayed up
here
til 3

then home

put some more wood in the fire
woke up Goat
who thought the house was burning down

i lay my cold body against his warm bed flesh
and dove into sleep


he left
i slept on

he came back to wake me at
2pm.

he drove me nearly an hour
through winding roads
out to Gabby's
where the gathering was happening..


i've not done a large thanks giving in years

small movie and meal last year with the Blakes
the year before, just a few around a table on the northern coast with Leo

but this was huge

most were there already
eating

i didn't bring my camera
and for the second time in 24 hours
i regretted my neglect at preparation and not having my camera with me

old empty houses we passed
through the hollars
the cliff walls

and here
all these people
all these beautiful people
all their creativity

sure
i talked to the big soft bearded ones from my waist

but so many others
and the interplays

this is a community
everyone has a story
and all the stories cross
and the constellations are a bit confusing down here..

and
as with all big gatherings
i reached my peek pretty quickly
and retreated
with a full belly

red wine mixed with ginger brew
absinth
cake

George had an instrument there that Goat had made a few years back
a nun's fiddle?
strange beast
Mirror played a little tune
Goat played a bigger one

what a lovely man

we took our chocolate and drove home
dark
the moon amazing
like the horns on the goat beast he'd fucked in last night's dream

what an amazing people there are here...

we watched Altman's "POPEYE"
Goat told me he'd just died...

maybe this was the first time i followed the plot of the film?

i watched it all the time as a kid

Goat said my psyche was just like that

he dubbed some Freakazoid
and we went to sleep

i feel well rested for the first time in weeks

today has been beautiful
warm
and the whole forest is just sticks
its amazing
i'll have to take some more pictures to show the amazing difference from less than a month ago

but now i'm up late again

wanted to give thanks

and finish my addictions:

i'm letting my silverdaddies account expire so i can't waste so much time on it
candy
sugar daddies
all that want
wasting my time (and heart and lust)

gonna shrink my world a bit
and get some stuff done

see you when i wake