just start in the middle
it makes the beginning so much easier:
i've felt this before
and i can say now that i understand why we don't live in a connected and conscious state all the time
but i still don't think it's a good idea
i vascillate
between being angry about it
and being apathetic
i understand now
and i still don't feel capable enough to actively change it
that's the whole thing?
martian said that when i am doing the proper thing that my wholness is needed for
then i will be whole again
until then
..
i'm not fully aware of my emotions
much less my place, my purpose
what if the world wasn't ending?
maybe i could dream of being an artist
maybe i could be a teacher
maybe i could be a father
if we weren't destroying everying...
IF the world was living
not dying
what if i could see it like that?
what if i could believe it?
there's hope!
i got life!
what could i do?
what could i be if there was a tomorrow?
