.. i think that idea struck me yesterday
when i saw some kids playing in a park
on those toys that only small kids are meant to play on
and i wondered if midgets could play on them?
it's probably a body weight thing...
think of how nice it would be to be in a body only 60 pounds...
to be able to move around so freely
have so much more energy
lighter on the joints
to be swinging through the trees
or the monkey bars in a play ground..
i thought about having a choice
(if i ever become a fiction writer... this will be my strange brand of Sci-Fi)
what if we had a consciousness of it?
i can't remember...
when i was a kid
what if i would have been happy with my body then
the strange way i was beholden to my parents.. and all the other people in their big bodies made me want to have one too
but what if i realized all the downsides to it then?
what if i just loved being little so much i just chose not to grow up
never released those crazy growth hormones that made the body go fat and lumpy and hairy and heavy
a simple choice:
just staying small
so it'd be easier to play all day..
i remember when i was young
i desperately wanted to get older.
i felt so terrible when i was a little boy
always being made to HAVE to do things for the bigger ones
the older ones
even my brother!
i felt like a total slave, a victim
and i had no choice!
i was rushing
i was leaning forward
i wanted to be old soooo badly
so i could get my own glasses out of the cupboard!
fix my own food!
grab the things on the higher shelf my mother would hide from me
so here i am.