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August 25th, 2005

my sister [s] @ 03:35 pm

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Date:August 26th, 2005 04:44 pm (UTC)

Any self-aware person would question these things.

I don't know if any one here has watched the series "Dead Like Me" on Showtime but the main characther asks herself those kind of questions. Is what I do who I am? What do I want to remembered for? "the fact that I was a great filer?" Or do I want to be remembered for something greater then what it is that I do? What am I supposed to be doing? Do I have a greater purpose?

I think alot of people are not sure of why they are supposed to be doing on this planet, and I think it's very easy to do a job that you don't like while you contemplate what it is your supposed to be doing. But I realistically don't think enough people really do challenge themselves to find what their passions in life is. Like some of the other people replying here. I too struggle with the same question.

I have had the honor and blessing of running my own business for the last five years and it has been very spiritually liberating. But when I think about some of my recently discovered long term goals my business is not going to give me the success I need to obtain those goals, and I may need to take a freelance gig to get some income in. But I will actively choose not to become a victim to my debt. But I have a partner and I have to think about "our" future and my subzero credit rating could hurt "us" if we are doing financial things together.

Dominic, this is the way I look at it. I have my eyes on the prize and try to think with the end in mind. It has taken me a long time to actually come up with somethings that I wanted to acquire in my lifetime, and now I am willing to do what I need to do to accommadate those dreams. I am currently separated from my husband but I also have to think about us, and what I want for the future of the relationship. I enjoy traveling around the world and would love to do that with my husband.

I think some people get caught up in the little stuff and do take a look at the bigger picture and try to see how they fit into that. But I agree with you that I would still never take or stay at a job or do work that I had little to no passion for, I am just not wired like that, never was. I am an iconoclaust by nature and I need to carve out my own path, and feel that it is "my own".
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Date:August 29th, 2005 05:57 am (UTC)

Re: Any self-aware person would question these things.

Well... she is... and she does...
like most Self Aware people
she takes a break from it
and... sometimes gets lost.

we all do..

during the conversation about the Dental Hygenist
even my father was telling her it was a job that had a quick Cap, as far as progression goes...
no real place to go
but quick good money if you can make it
and then just coast from there.

and this time with my brother has been good: he talks a lot about the process he's going through...
i don't really know what his ultimate vision is
but he doesn't either
it's fleshing out in a new way than it was last time he had a clear view of what he wanted it to be
--- but i have faith he has one
and he's only working through this "purgatory" as a way to get where he's going.

but the partnership thing is what's helping him do it, i think...

and that's what i hear from you
that i don't yet know...
how your husband motivates you to be greater than you are

i had that strongly for a year
but only a year
and even then
i didn't live with the guy... just loved him

you certainly seem like an interesting fellow i look forward to getting to know..

if i can ever manage to stay put in that city for longer than a week...

i've had dreams lately of sitting in my own apartment and reading a lot...

but it doesn't look like the place i'm living now...
so i'll have to start looking.

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